Bummed Out

Well, I didn't do it.  I failed. Twice.

I ran strong for the first ten miles and then lost it during the next two.  I don't even know why.  My foot started hurting a little.  But not as bad as it has.  I just ran completely out of "umphhh".  I dropped the dog off at home after twelve miles and promptly quit.  And literally cried to my husband and boys about what a failure I was.  Cried I didn't want to be a "quitter".  Well, one boy (who later admitted he was it a bad mood) said quite bluntly, " I think it's all in your head."  This made me feel even worse so five minutes after I quit, I started again.

Only to quit again after three grueling miles.  I just couldn't run.  I quit a second time and walked a long two and a half miles home.

I ran 15 miles and walked 2.5, yet I still feel like a failure.  Crazy, huh?

I have analyzed this and analyzed it.  I just don't know.  I know I wasn't well rested (coming off a small jet lag).  I didn't eat very well the days leading up to the run.  I was hurt.  I have many excuses and one more chance at completing 20 miles.  If I don't get it done this week it's "adios Flying Pig Marathon."

I will be so disappointed in myself and embarassed because I feel like I am letting so many people down.

Pressure.

Comments

[Linda]

Psst...check Ravelry...

[Ragged]

Chin up. . . this is a bump in the road. It's not a failure, just a bump. . . don't let it take away your need to do this.