Well, I didn't do it. I failed. Twice.
I ran strong for the first ten miles and then lost it during the next two. I don't even know why. My foot started hurting a little. But not as bad as it has. I just ran completely out of "umphhh". I dropped the dog off at home after twelve miles and promptly quit. And literally cried to my husband and boys about what a failure I was. Cried I didn't want to be a "quitter". Well, one boy (who later admitted he was it a bad mood) said quite bluntly, " I think it's all in your head." This made me feel even worse so five minutes after I quit, I started again.
Only to quit again after three grueling miles. I just couldn't run. I quit a second time and walked a long two and a half miles home.
I ran 15 miles and walked 2.5, yet I still feel like a failure. Crazy, huh?
I have analyzed this and analyzed it. I just don't know. I know I wasn't well rested (coming off a small jet lag). I didn't eat very well the days leading up to the run. I was hurt. I have many excuses and one more chance at completing 20 miles. If I don't get it done this week it's "adios Flying Pig Marathon."
I will be so disappointed in myself and embarassed because I feel like I am letting so many people down.